Feel the Fear And do it Anyway

Have you ever feel fear in your life? Perhaps … fear of cockroach? flying? height?... I guess everyone does experiences fear. Michael Pritchard once said: "Fear is that little darkroom where negatives are developed." When you feel fearful, the feeling of fear is programmed into your nervous system and works like an instinct, holding you back from approaching things that you are facing where it tend to build up behavior of escape and avoidance.

Fellow toastmaster, ladies and gentlemen, let me share with you my three fears and how I overcome my fears. They are:
1. Fear of public speaking
2. Fear of social interaction
3. Fear of failure

Far above the fear of death and disease, comes the fear of standing in front of a crowd to speak. Yes, I have faced this problem since I was in primary school. I never dare myself to raise my hand and volunteer myself to answer a simple question posed by teachers. Whenever teachers ask for a volunteer out of 50 students in the class to answer his/her question, automatically I will sure bend my shoulder, eye contact with the floor instead of the teacher, and in my mind … I keep praying that “Don’t pick me! Don’t pick me! P-l-e-a-s-e ...”. Yes, being the physically smallest in the class, teachers hardly notice me and I was spared from answering those questions.

This fear of speaking has eroded me to a person who lacks confidence in delivering my message to others especially in front of a crowd.

Realizing that I need to overcome my fear to speak, I started to take initiative to participate in story telling contests and choral speaking club during my secondary school where I could practise to build up my confidence and courage to stand in front of the crowd whether in a group or alone and speak. It really does help me to overcome my fear. And of course, it is not enough, that’s why I have joined the toastmaster club, and this evening, I am here to present my 3rd speech so that I can further overcome my fear of speaking in front of public.

I Felt the Fear of Public Speaking And I Did It Anyway!

Let me now share my 2nd fear – the fear of social interaction.

Whenever my relatives, my father’s or my brother’s friends came to our house and visit us, there is always a little girl, hiding behind my mum, holding tight at her shirt and again … eye contact with the floor … or sometimes running into her bedroom and locking herself in her room, pretending to finish up her homework … that’s me. Instead of shyly stepping up to meet with people, I could feel deep inside me … a fear … holding me back to interact with people. The anxiety of being judged and evaluated by other people inhibited my interaction with others.
However, as time goes by, I start to realize that it was rude behavior not to respond positively when people approaches me to talk to me. Since then, I took the initiative to join clubs and societies which do involve interaction with people. Chinese Society, PBSM, Sin Chew Cadet Reporter, SLAD, Pesta Ang Pau … I made new friends from my schools and other schools as well. Together we organized activities, mingled with different team members, play and fool around with each other. After all, it was not only a matter about fun and learning but it is all about conquering the social phobia embedded within me.

I Felt the Fear of Interacting with People … And I Did It Anyway.

My third and not the least fear is the fear of failure.

Yes, most of the time I am afraid to try because I am afraid I will fail. And usually I will give myself numbers of well-reasoned thoughts such as “timing isn’t right”, “I doubt I could handle this” … and eventually, these rationales caused me to miss many opportunities to learn.

Buckminster Fuller once wrote, “Whatever humans have learned had to be learned as a consequence only of trial and error experience. Humans have learned only through mistakes.”

And this reminds me of Thomas Edison, who went through 1000 time of “mistakes” just to invent a light bulb. His success doesn’t come from his invention but his courage to take the risk of trial and error.

His real life story does impact on my perception of failure and help me overcome my fear. Whenever I fail, I will remind myself of Thomas Edison – no one will ever succeed if they never fail.

I Felt the Fear of Failure … I remembered the Words of people like Thomas Edison … And I Did It Anyway.

Fellow toastmaster, ladies and gentlemen,

Fear can be overcome only if you face it head on. Yes, I use to fear public speaking AND I am now standing before you now. I use to fear social interacting with people AND now I have made many friends especially friends like you. And the fear of failure AND I shall soon be graduating from this fine university with a degree in Chemical Engineering.

Let me close with this quote from Susan Jeffers: [ … P A U S E … B R E A T H E
D E E P L Y … A N D S A Y …]

FEEL THE FEAR, AND DO IT ANYWAY!

Mr/Ms Toastmaster.

Random quote for myself

"You will never know the strength of capability in you if you bury it"..So, find it out and work on it!!!^^

小人

没得罪人，却引来从背面攻击的小人。。。
最可怕的是，小人竟是身边的朋友。。。

Second speech in UTC entitled "Sorry Mother Earth"

Turn on the TV...be it the mews channel, movies or National Geography. Every 15 minutes or so, you'll get a reminder on the importance on conseving the usage of paper to save mother earth of many tres that goes to making the simple paper which we have grown up to depend.

Then the iPad, iPhone, MSN came to the rescue of the mother earth...telling us how these modern technologies can do away with paper.

While to a certain extent this may be true but as a student, I cannot do without paper.

Fellow toastmaster, Ladies, and Gentlemen. Let me share with you 3 instances why I said I cannot do away with paper...even with all the modern technologies. They are:
1. Printed books Vs eBooks;
2. Dairy keeping; and
3. As a cost-efective mean of saying "I Love You."

Nowadays with eBooks, ejournal and internet, you can access to all sort of information to get your assignment done with no sweat...No!I didn't say that...I was drown with modern technologies to help me with my work.

I tried to accept these modern technologies by downloading a termendous amount of eBoooks from the internet and began referring to several e-journals to make sense of what is being said about a subject matter by different authors...with the flick of my fingers on the mouse...soon, not only did get stiff fingers...I lose my concentration and when I break for meals and want to continue from where I left off...lo and behold... I have lost where i left off and had to go back again.

I have lost many variable time redoing what I have lost and decided whether I should save mother earth at the expense of my studies.

I lost no time in printing out everything that I need for my studies. On printed materials I can use book markers and highlight any paragraphs I deem important. I can even use several color highlighters on one book.

Now I can leave my books for meals and continue upon my return.

Sorry mother eart...my studies is more important to me.

Time and again we are hounded by our lecturers and peers to keep a diary so that we do not miss out any lectures and appointments.

Yes. Nowadays we have handphones that has a diary built into it. BUt don't forget, even handphone will out of battery, and occasionally, this boyfriend of mine tend to throw tantrum at me and refuse to function well too!But you know what? My diary doesn't. I have to depend on my diary of this nature.

Besides, where else can I pen my secret thoughts at the moments' notice. Capture notes expounded during lectures. A handphone cannot let me do this.

Sorry, Mother Earth, I have to depend on my diary.

I remembered when I was in Form 4 and it was my mum's birthday. I wanted to buy her a present but as a student, I have not enough money to buy her anything branded.

I was at my wits end until I hit upon an idea. i scrounge on my pocket money and saved FIVE RINGGITS and made a Birthday Card for my mum.

I bought a hard cover papaer and a present wrapping paper.

I wrapped one side of the hard cover paper with the present wrapping paper, took out a family photo and the rectangular-shaped photo and paste on the card. Then, I foleded the card nto half with the photo face outside. After that, I opened up the folded card, took out a pen, and wrote on it with all my sincere wishes and love. That's the finishing part of the card making process. With the remaining present wrapping paper left, I cut it into more that 100 rectangular shape pieces and start to fold stars. Then, I collected all the folded stars and put them into a empty glass bottle which I found left alone in the kitchen. On the day of my mm's birthday, I woke up earlier and put the birthdaycard and the glass of folded stars on the dining table. My mom came down and she saw the card. While she was reading the content of the card, I appeared beside her, hugged her and said happy birthday, mom. There was no tears but from her face expression, I could feel the joyful in her. Without spending more than RM5 on those materials, I could surprise my mom with the exquisite birthday card and present that I have made on my own. I could say that it would be much better that I bought a brand to her.

Sorry Mother Earth, seeing my mom's smile is more important to me.

Fellow toastmasters, ladies and gentlemen, while i do admit that we can do a lot to help mother earth, the above were 3 instances where I can't do anything to help mother earth.

I need the use of the printed books as my studies are more important to me. I need to depend on my diary to keep my studies up to date and seeing my mum's smile is more important to me when I have none to give.

SORRY MOTHER EARTH!

Mr./Ms Toastmaster

random feeling

It's always easy to say out persuasive word to others but not yourself. Whenever faced problem, whatever come across mind was just suck, feel myself unfortune, unlucky, then what comes next sure thoughts like giving up everything, why bad things keep happening on me, bla bla bla...But why not cool down for a while, get youself a inert peace and kick away all the negative thoughts that were trying to block away your rational and create disturbance to your thoughts? They said, whatever thoughts that come across your mind will probably turn out to be reality in your life. No matter you believe or not, it's a fact and I believe in this. That's why never let negative thoughts come across your mind. Think of tomorrow will be a nice day, and sure tomorrow will be. Think of you can do it, you can do it better, then it will be...And once you stand up again,everything will be just fine and bad things you have encountered was just a small matter and solution will always be there for you - a little advice for myself~~

Happy Birthday to MEEEE~~~~

Time flied, just in moment of flash, where you didn't notice you have grown up for another year. In the other words, which means you're getting older,hehe:P

I had just passed my 23th birthday. Initially thought that I just gonna to have a very simple birthday celebration with my beloved family and close friends. But guess my low expectation had turn out to gain more unexpected surprise.^^

On my birthday's eve, hang out with miss lamlam and sigrid...


Got a free treat dinner from sigrid at BBQ Plaza..^^

And received my early birthday present from mr. Foong..It is my favourite puzzle!!!Guess what?

It's a combination photos of our gang stamped on the 500 piece of puzzles!!!>.<...It took me for almost 3 days to finish up the puzzle with a little help from my mom.hehe :P


Thanks for my supervisor, Miss Esther Ang for my birthday cake and held a simple celebration for me during office hour with my colleague as well.^^
And on my birthday night, I spent with my family with Durians as my special birthday cake.hahaha


Coming up on next day, one of my gf, yiny took ktm far away from Kl and showed up in Seremban as what she has planned earlier. Surprisingly, she was not the only one showing up, but few of them from Penang, Ipoh and Malacca!!>.<..You are the best and thanks a lots~~~


p/s: I dun hv the group photos with me.:P

Received 2 exquisite presents~~~
A necklace with hand-made birthday card from kai liang ^^

A little cross-stitch pouch from kiat and sewed by yiny >.< ..with a pair of "carved-with-bestfriend" necklaces which mean a lot to our everlasting friendship.^^


Another celebration with my sban gf, ai yin~~~at Boston Restaurant. ^^

Steamboat~~lalalala~~~

As usual, had few self-camwhored before fill up our stomach with those yummy dishes :P

My fourth birthday cake of this year..^^


A little birthday present inclosed with "love letter" from ai yin~~Thank a lots,dear~~


Hrmmmmm....guess I am gonna miss my 23th birthday >.<

intern life~~

In engineering school, we only can learn all the theory from text book but never ever apply it in practice. But industrial training come across this advantage, it is the stepping stone for us to apply the basic theory we had learned and practice it wisely and in the engineering way during training. But honestly to say, it's not easy as expected especially when you are still new to this.@.@

Lipochem - a place full with comfort environment, no tension and people around that are friendly and willing to teach you step by step.



Me wearing a lab coat in the R&D lab~~~

Took some random photos when hang out with ai yin after off work.^^



My new hair style~~~browny hair but not so obvious to be seen it is brown actually @.@