Don’t ever let “lonely” accompanying you
Friends are there always for you
Just bring yourself over
And join them…
Moment of happiness can be created
But also can be intruded by sadness
Feel the joyancy around you and friends
And share your happiness with them
People wouldn’t close up with sadness
But they only be attracted by laughter…
So, smile for yourself!!!
2009年4月5日星期日
Where are you, study mood?
Another day just gone but not in the way that I hv planned. OMG!! Where are you, study mood? Still left about 15 days but there is none any self-motivation at all that push me to study. Planned to study tpk 1st, sat on the chair for hours, paper slide is highlighted with the text book opened in front of me, but…none of the words are getting into my mind at all..!
Been suffering from losing my appetite because there is “gases” in my stomach, insomnia for weeks, now suffering from losing my self-motivation to STUDY? Yin, don’t you remember the reason why you came to UMS? STUDY! STRIKE FOR YOUR TARGET!...Give priority to yourself 1st!!! that’s what yiny’s told me before. I want to STUDY HARDER!!!
And this evening, I went jogging with my course mates again. Initially, plan should be cancelled because of the rain, but I still insist to go for a jog since one of my friend, Keat is going alone. Ha..I have been scolded by him because it is rain and I will get sick easily but I just told him it is not my first time to jog under the rain and the important is, I really wanna to jog!!...But, I just found out that he actually afraid that rumour will arise again because someone saw us both going for a jog…swt -.-! Come on! It is just a jog, not a big deal at all!!!..Then we just called Hau, who just awoke from sleep..ha.
It is actually small rain, and it stopped when we arrived at the sport complex. There are still many people there, playing valley ball, basketball and jogging…Somehow, others coming also and join us later on..The competition between me and Keat finally can run le.ha..and another additional participant too-Hau..haha. Well, we set a rule that girl should at least finish 6 rounds and guys, 8 rounds.hehe…And for the punishment, loser will buy the winners meal..
The game begin!! 3 of us just run and I am sure everyone of us just run for our target because none of us wanna to lose for the free meal..haha. I thought I will lose somehow at my fourth round because I started to lose my energy. But, no no no!! Can’t lose for the free meal and to the guys too..And finally, I did it!!!hahahaha. I felt the accomplishment for myself.haha…Hau and I finished for our target, but, Keat…wow! He ran for 11 rounds. Well, that’s what we called “athlete”…somehow, I ran extra 1 round for me while awaiting for the “athlete” to finished his last round. == So, the total is 7 rounds. Yes! I finally broke my record. Thanks for the game!!!hahaha…
p/s: Another short moment of happiness for me, haha…
Been suffering from losing my appetite because there is “gases” in my stomach, insomnia for weeks, now suffering from losing my self-motivation to STUDY? Yin, don’t you remember the reason why you came to UMS? STUDY! STRIKE FOR YOUR TARGET!...Give priority to yourself 1st!!! that’s what yiny’s told me before. I want to STUDY HARDER!!!
And this evening, I went jogging with my course mates again. Initially, plan should be cancelled because of the rain, but I still insist to go for a jog since one of my friend, Keat is going alone. Ha..I have been scolded by him because it is rain and I will get sick easily but I just told him it is not my first time to jog under the rain and the important is, I really wanna to jog!!...But, I just found out that he actually afraid that rumour will arise again because someone saw us both going for a jog…swt -.-! Come on! It is just a jog, not a big deal at all!!!..Then we just called Hau, who just awoke from sleep..ha.
It is actually small rain, and it stopped when we arrived at the sport complex. There are still many people there, playing valley ball, basketball and jogging…Somehow, others coming also and join us later on..The competition between me and Keat finally can run le.ha..and another additional participant too-Hau..haha. Well, we set a rule that girl should at least finish 6 rounds and guys, 8 rounds.hehe…And for the punishment, loser will buy the winners meal..
The game begin!! 3 of us just run and I am sure everyone of us just run for our target because none of us wanna to lose for the free meal..haha. I thought I will lose somehow at my fourth round because I started to lose my energy. But, no no no!! Can’t lose for the free meal and to the guys too..And finally, I did it!!!hahahaha. I felt the accomplishment for myself.haha…Hau and I finished for our target, but, Keat…wow! He ran for 11 rounds. Well, that’s what we called “athlete”…somehow, I ran extra 1 round for me while awaiting for the “athlete” to finished his last round. == So, the total is 7 rounds. Yes! I finally broke my record. Thanks for the game!!!hahaha…
p/s: Another short moment of happiness for me, haha…
2009年4月3日星期五
Depression?
I accompanied yiny to the pusat rawatan at our uni to check for her spine that cause by her accidental falling.. Eeei, you wouldn’t believe he was a doctor from your first sight, because he looked more like a staff than a career man, hehe…so naughty. This is what we called never judge a book by its cover!! ==lll
Initially Yiny asked me to wait her outside there but later on the doctor just came out and asked me in. Then he just closed the door..Eei, what would you imagine? A bit to negative thinking, but just for couple of second only…he wanna to check for yiny’s spine and sure there must have a bit skin touching la..The problem is the doctor was a man and the patient was a lady. They can’t just be in a room, just both of them? And I am the one who be the witness, ha…Emm, very sane in thinking, doc..
We actually are having a important staff to do while waiting for the doctor…hehe. Guess what? girls’ staff-weighing!! Emm, from 48kg, drops to 45.6kg, not sure whether it is good news or bad news for me. And yiny said it is because I am under depression before that..haha. But the funny thing is yiny became fat le!!hahahaha….i think it is a good news to her because she used to be underweight before that. So, should I laugh at her slightly tumefy tummy? Hahaha…oops!so bad…
Initially Yiny asked me to wait her outside there but later on the doctor just came out and asked me in. Then he just closed the door..Eei, what would you imagine? A bit to negative thinking, but just for couple of second only…he wanna to check for yiny’s spine and sure there must have a bit skin touching la..The problem is the doctor was a man and the patient was a lady. They can’t just be in a room, just both of them? And I am the one who be the witness, ha…Emm, very sane in thinking, doc..
We actually are having a important staff to do while waiting for the doctor…hehe. Guess what? girls’ staff-weighing!! Emm, from 48kg, drops to 45.6kg, not sure whether it is good news or bad news for me. And yiny said it is because I am under depression before that..haha. But the funny thing is yiny became fat le!!hahahaha….i think it is a good news to her because she used to be underweight before that. So, should I laugh at her slightly tumefy tummy? Hahaha…oops!so bad…
2009年4月1日星期三
Who am I?
Keep on telling myself, everything will be fine soon…
Really hope so it will. Only hope that can make me stand up again…maybe not all the time, but at least some of the time when I need strength to make myself be strong again, internally…
That day I went to temple and prayed. 2 wishes just come across my mind and I just made that wishes..1st, I hope my family be healthy always and happy as well; 2nd, I hope that everything will turn good and smooth again.
My 2nd wish really came true the next day where we just “berdamai” like usual, and that night I really feel happy enough. Somehow, it is not for long…haiz, dun no why. Good thing just happen in an unexpected way and just stopped with reason that I don’t even know. Really wanna to know why does this happen, but not dare to ask…
Everyone advise me not to think too much, but the curiosity within myself just can’t stop asking question..Why am I have to face this kind of problem?...Why there can’t be any confession between us? We just used to hide the feeling or maybe just tell somebody else but not the party. Would it be good if we just confront each other and speak it out the feeling we are having now, no matter what feeling is that. At least we can know each other better, knowing what the thought we are having now and we can just indulge each other…
Somehow, I am not a good presenter and I can’t really express my true feeling, my thought in front of everyone through words. And write it down would be the only way for me to express my feeling that I am having. Believe it or not, it is true…
Am I wearing a mask all this time? Beneath the mask, what is the true character that I am having? Why there are so much different between the one before and now? Does it matter if I have my own feeling and opinion? Does the one who used to be a quiet girl that only can be accepted? I really don’t understand…I love the song “reflection”, sang by Christina Aguilera. The lyrics somehow a bit reflecting myself.
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that I’m
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
P/S:
倒底自己的背后还需背着多少的不爽
倒底自己的坚强还能撑到几时？
Really hope so it will. Only hope that can make me stand up again…maybe not all the time, but at least some of the time when I need strength to make myself be strong again, internally…
That day I went to temple and prayed. 2 wishes just come across my mind and I just made that wishes..1st, I hope my family be healthy always and happy as well; 2nd, I hope that everything will turn good and smooth again.
My 2nd wish really came true the next day where we just “berdamai” like usual, and that night I really feel happy enough. Somehow, it is not for long…haiz, dun no why. Good thing just happen in an unexpected way and just stopped with reason that I don’t even know. Really wanna to know why does this happen, but not dare to ask…
Everyone advise me not to think too much, but the curiosity within myself just can’t stop asking question..Why am I have to face this kind of problem?...Why there can’t be any confession between us? We just used to hide the feeling or maybe just tell somebody else but not the party. Would it be good if we just confront each other and speak it out the feeling we are having now, no matter what feeling is that. At least we can know each other better, knowing what the thought we are having now and we can just indulge each other…
Somehow, I am not a good presenter and I can’t really express my true feeling, my thought in front of everyone through words. And write it down would be the only way for me to express my feeling that I am having. Believe it or not, it is true…
Am I wearing a mask all this time? Beneath the mask, what is the true character that I am having? Why there are so much different between the one before and now? Does it matter if I have my own feeling and opinion? Does the one who used to be a quiet girl that only can be accepted? I really don’t understand…I love the song “reflection”, sang by Christina Aguilera. The lyrics somehow a bit reflecting myself.
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I’m forced to hide?
I won’t pretend that I’m
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
P/S:
倒底自己的背后还需背着多少的不爽
倒底自己的坚强还能撑到几时？
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